what now?

okay so i became a mommy big deal! millions of children are born every minute all over this planet . so i was an actress and a part model and pregnancy played havoc with my bod so what !!!! i should be able to get back the abs plus the non existent back side. all it takes is a little bit of an effort right ? :) my daughter is almost 1 and a half years old still the endeavor i fore mentioned has not pulled off any thing . i have lost weight but the fat is still there in the most undesirable of places ,the jiggle still wobbling and the post natal(to date) giving me the lowest self esteem i couldn't even fathom in others.
This quandary is faced by all us women after the elevation of our statuses too parents. i am sure it doesn't necessarily affect us all in the same intensity but none the less it is there. for me it has been over bearing . Two reasons first: my livelihood depends on my appearance and secondly i have always been a staunch physical fitness advocate, based strongly on my extreme weight fluctuations in the past. i dealt with Anorexia in my teenage years and before that i was pretty close to a sumo wrestler (not that i have any thing against them ) hence all the fat gain has hit me supremely hard.
I am absolutely one hundred thousand percent aware of the means with which i could bid sweet sweet farewell to the pounds and kilos , just that don't you think there is always a time crunch or persistent baby duty(which i adore to the core) or varied unavoidable circumstances which puncture any and every sub conscious urge to work those muscles back to life ! whew that was a hefty one. my cute little sister suggested yoga and aerobics and swimming (all separately and with intervals between them ) to each i had a suitable answer ready , which varied in reasons but gist the same, NO CAN DO .
Hah what a loser ! that is what you are thinking? correct ? i know i am . i am sick of this attitude with which i have laden my self. all the preggo (well not all only the very IMPORTANT ONES) have managed to regain their nice shapely thin forms , and all i do is complain, moan and delve in self loathing or pity ! tut tut . there are such sweet lovable encouraging people around me like my dear dear life partner, my temporary mommy ( i say this as she is Always working) my bff sister and some friends ,won't name any in order to avoid bloated heads, every one is there to help but i don't get off my.... eureka !!!!i found it :) god helps those who help themselves (and stop their ceaseless whining), have patience and forbearance !!!! yes yes YEEEEEEES why didn't i know about this earlier ? 'course i did .sigh !!!! ahem, only this that writing about it makes it more bona fide and authentic .
After this not so revelation i am headed to the treadmill finally !so sweet of you to bear with me and my banter. needed an ear and a shoulder literally . will bore you again with more of disclosures ,i promise, not too soon :) take good care . tata